The distant hills, patched dusty green and gold,
Dissolve and ripple in the evening haze,
And rivers trace a winding azure web
Through sunlit fields where lazy cattle graze.
Just here, knee deep in waving meadow grass,
The sinking sun still warm against my cheek,
A sighing ash disturbs the heavy hush.
My heart stands still. I’d swear I heard you speak.
I lie down under weeping willow boughs,
Where clouds of midges dance against the blue,
And close my eyes to ease my memory
Back to that short, hot summer spent with you.
Now interfering sight is out of mind,
My other senses exercise their skill,
Conspire against my crashed and burned-out heart
To make believe you’re lying with me still.
The feathered grass that strokes my goosebumped skin
Mimics your restless touch – a callous plot!
The gentle breeze that plays across my lips
Becomes your breath, so tender, sweet and hot.
The soothing swish of branches in the wind
Echoes your urgent whisper in my ear,
That everything you’ll ever need in life,
Is everything you have right now, right here.
But everything I gave was not enough
To tame the wayward fire of your love.
And now the chill of nightfall closes in,
While drifts of stars dust indigo above.
The distant hills, washed dusky grey and mauve,
Smudge out to shadows now, as darkness grows,
And rivers trace a glinting silver web,
Through moonlit fields where drowsy cattle doze.
While shards of your deception stab me still,
Our supernova joy explodes the pain.
And even though I sit at wisdom’s feet,
If you stood here, I’d rise, and fall again.
(C) Helen Lewis, 2004